hi there, My name is Marcus Sawyer. I have just begun speaking out against scientology after 10 years of fear of fair game.
I am not going to live in fear anymore. Seeing these names brings back so many memories, as after I attempted suicide in the Melrose mission, Tom and Kathy Steiner left the SMI network and opened a Narconon in Baton Rouge.
I was a "heavy drug case" and Kathy told me she had "failed" me. I was released from staff with my $500 after 2 years of service and raising countless hundreds of thousands of dollars from Los Angeles celebrities.
here is my youtube. I am very interested in seeing narconon removed from baton rouge. i just stumbled across this randomly from a google search.
I am willing to help in any way i can.
What i would like to say to this "tipster" is something i wish i'd realized years ago.
Scientology is a small cult, with a lot of money, but dwindling numbers. As time goes on and technology and freedom of information through the net continue to grow, it will only get smaller.
I know that fear you have. But I lived in that fear for many years, and it cost me more than you can imagine. because with that fear comes misery, unhappiness, and self-hatred.
You eventually have to forgive yourself for being part of a destructive organization, read as much as you possibly can on the subject and stop being afraid.
I cannot blame you for not wanting to speak out publicly, but know that the atrocities that occur every day will continue if you don't. I'm sure you have some terrible OW writeups, I have some really bad ones too, KNOW that the reason you are coerced into confessing all the things you did, and in my case as i'm sure it is yours, things you really DIDNT do, but perhaps you think you did.
Sort those things out, know what you did and didn't do. guilt, fear, manipulation, phobias, are all part of what you experienced and are a huge part in why you are scared to reveal yourself.
I worked with Tom, Kathy, Dominic, Eve, Jim, Kelly, Natasha, Dexter, and others very closely in ventura and melrose. I know how scared you are.
I have just begun to speak out, and i know others who have left staff that may or may not ever speak out. but for me, i have to, for my own sanity, because it was literally destroying my life holding on to these things.
check out my youtube, and scour the net for everything you can find. Read going clear, read piece of blue sky, and anything else you can. If you haven't done this yet, do it, and then go through the emotional roller coaster of feeling like a fool. You are not a fool, you came here and said some very brave things.
Lets get rid of this monster.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcM_aaTECUw&list=PL0aHdNcy4YEK6FQS1_HYZSDXOtwMAsIPU